Thanks God that we are leaving for icecream now, I hope sugar will improve my mood, but for sure it will stop me from reading news.
Terorists of the whole world, read my message: “Fuck You! I dont give a shit about what You fight for. I might start listening to You when You stop killing random people!”
Its even hard to hate You… Why?
Maybe You are aiming for a good cause, giving people a place to live, maybe You even think that fighting for keeping of Your traditions and refusing of all “outside evil” is good, maybe You even believe its God telling You to do so. You are wrong… I dont think there is any just idea that can be honoured by killing random people.
And maybe You are like this boy, boy who was sent to study religion by his family, to study how to be a good and just man and finished up to become a suicide attacker, a sacrificial lamb. It had nothing to do with God what You – a man – tried him to do. God has made him fail and be forgiven and sent back home… This was not an idea of a crazy young mind like the boys at School shootings, this is an act of violence planned by a “teacher”, a would-be-holy-man.
Why am I saying all of these? AIESEC is having a conference in Islamabad in 10 days.
Today 12 people have been bomb killed in Islamabad. I am sorry to tell so, but I its hard for me to relate to these people. I have not met them and I dont know their story. But still, I can relate to the situation in the way that the AIESEC members might not come for the conference. The attacks are making it more difficult for me to do good, to educate people, to make a positive change in this society, in peoples lifes.
This is one of the effects to be in AIESEC or other similar organisation. You start to relate to lots of events that happened far away from You, or events that happen in areas (of society, economy, city) that You would not feel connected to. What do I mean? Well, what is the reason that You care about the Islamabad events? Why should You bother even thinking of them and maybe hating the people who did that? … I might be the reason. I hope You will feel afraid about me, feel uncomfortable with the situation, understand the tragedy and if You ever have the chance do SOMETHING about it.
It might be something as small as next time when listening to somebody blaming all this happening on Islam, USA, Israel or whoever else, You remind Yourself of what I have experienced and told You and try to show the person that it has nothing to do with religions/states, but its all about people… The person might or might not listen to You, but if s/he does, You have done a small step towards ending of this crazy “lets kill people to make a point” issue…
I have been having the icecream, thats why my negative emotions are not that clear anymore, You might consider all what I have writen crap. But there is one thing that I hope will happen anyways: next time when You have the chance to somehow help people of Pakistan, do it for me, for my sympathy for this country and its people, for my will to make a change happen in here. Do feel related, You have just been given a little bit of responsibility for this people, I hope You cant hate them all anymore, despite the fact that You will find that SOME people from this country did evil things (9/11, failed July London bombings). Because love is the only way how we can fight with hatred…
I dont think anybody except of one or two people will ever read this, but if it touches their hearts and start thinking about it… it had sense.
Goodnight then my friends, thank You for being with me.
PS: it was tears of anger of what they did to me, sourness of the selfishness of this style of thinking, frustration of my limited power to do something about it, sadness for these peole who have passed away (a number that has changed into something that touches me) and relief that I have been able to express at least somehow how I feel about this.
1. The way there took whole day, 18 hours to Lahore and from there another 4 hours to Islamabad. A trip that might have been boring if there would not be my MC members, Cluedo, Hundred years of solitude and a great sight of the window with me. Click on the pics to see all of them…
2. The conference was great. I have expected more people based on the original materials but the simple math I could have done also for myself 
It was cca 40 people out of the 100 of members of Pakistan, when taking holidays and internships in concern, it is still a good number.
The atmosphere was good, eventhough only at the end we (faci team and chairs) have found out what was missing – noise (if we dont count the waterfight at 5 am on Sunday, but even that was rather calm.. next time a lil more planning and NOBODY is going to stay dry!!!)!
The most amazing part was that the official dinner took place in a restaurant right above Islamabad. Actually there was a long talk if to go or not as there were security concerns but at the end not a single thing was risky, except of the risk of falling in love with that place 
And for AIESEC in Pakistan the most important thing was that Islamabad was finally accepted as Official extension… These guys are really great to work with (they made a dance that we, MC, tried to use at IC but failed terribly due to technical problems 
) and I am sure they will catch up to the others very soon!
3. The stay in Islamabad before and after the conference. A very quiet time in Nidas house. Great food, nice place and lovely people…
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